Two Views
My human view of life’s events:
Yes, it has been EXTREMLY hard.
No, I don’t think you wanted to go through it.
Did it have to be so humbling and humiliating leaving behind only a helplessness in your spirit?
Yes, you feel like you are still in the middle of it and it is awfully difficult to imagine when it will be over or what life will be like in its aftermath.
What possible good can come from this?
My eternal view of the same events:
Yes, it has been hard on Jesus to allow you to experience this.
You want what He wants for you even though some things are hard to be understood.
When your spirit cries out that it is hurting is when you are infinitely closer to Him than when you are self confidently existing in your own control.
You revel in anticipation of His great blessings and rewards which await you. It is awfully difficult to image how unfulfilled your life would be without Him guiding you through the thoughts and plans he has for you. There is no way to humanly understand the treasures He will pour into your life through this.